My Time Machine

Tell me, have you ever met ANYONE who isn't in some way defined by some kind of emotional turmoil in their past
I've been thinking about emotional moments
truly tough times
that somehow change us
define us
and then i started thinking again
that it isn't those MOMENTS that define us
it's how we REACT to those moments
think about that for a minute
because it has profound implications
because I think we can get stuck in RUTS
and we continue to react to those same situations in the same manner
but what if we could CHANGE the way we react
what if, all of a sudden, when those old feelings come up
we can change the reaction
so that we are no longer defined by the MOMENT
but by the way we REACT to the moment
and if we can change the REACTION
we can change the MOMENT
do you see where I'm getting with this
hell
i'm not really sure where I'm going with this
but that maybe
we don't always have to BE what we are
we can be something different
something better
by recognizing those moments
identifying our old reactions
and modifying them
i don't know
i just got to thinking that you (and I) don't have to be creatures of sympathetic reaction
of continuous knee-jerk blinks of conciousness
you don't always have to be defined by the blonda
and I don't always have to be defined by my sick father
i don't know. maybe I'm crazy. maybe I've been thinking too much.
but if humans are a compilation of MOMENTS...
big ones.
small ones.
huge ones that cause us to make the same mistakes over and over
tiny ones that we don't react enough to
i believe we can change the MOMENTS
make some bigger
make some smaller
until we limit the refraction
duh. how do I explain that
until we can contain the emotional wreckage