This may be an overly logical way to do this, but it's the best I can do today.
Things I know
1. I encouraged you to do this.
2. I believe it's the best thing for you for a variety of reasons
3. I have no hold on you in that fashion and never did
4. Constraints upon your time are going to make create huge changes to "this".
5. I already feel like I wait around for you to have time for me already... that's only to get worse.
6. I have to change how I feel about you, stop waiting around, stop moulding my life around the possibility to talk to you.
Things I don't know
1. Why I am suffering from these dark visions of you and this other woman wrapped together like two fishing worms.
2. Why this is bothering me so much. It's illogical, given the things I know (see above).
3. How to get rid of this hollow feeling in my stomach.
Can you see why I'm so confused?
yes my love
ReplyDeletei can see and feel how you are confused
and i can see feel and understand the pain
my question is:
can this be a stepping stone
like all the other blocks where?
or is the going to be the one
that makes us stumble?
i am open as always to whatever you have to say
or to the quietness of what you think should be left
unsaid
though the unsaid is always harder
im waiting outside for you to reach a decision.
let me know when and if i can come back inside.
i miss you