Thumbing through pictures

I feel like I've lost something that I never had. Missed an opportunity that was never mine. Misplaced a gift that was never given to me. Taken a beating I didn't deserve. Those are the feelings that run through me when I look at the pictures from the party the other night. Other than just plain old green-eyed jealousy when I see pictures of you. and her. Grrrrrr. GOD HOW JUVENILE. that irritates me, too. really thought I was bigger than that. Damnit.